121. Om bhayapahayai namah: I bow down to Amma who dispels fear
I could chant this again and again. Oh the millions of times I have felt the stab of fear. Everytime I feel it, my immediate response is to reach out for Amma. And slowly, depending on the situation, calmness descends. There are times when I have gone form fearful to fearless in less than 6 seconds. When I have felt Amma's arms encircle my body and calm me down.
Each time I have chosen to dissect the fear. What is it? Is fear a feeling of not being in control? Or not being in the know of something? Or does it rise in a situation when we worry about something impending? And in each of these, it's the lack of belief in Amma. Mea culpa! For all my posturing, I go through several times a day when I forget Amma or even worse, question Her. I wonder if She really is on the lookout for me. That health issue...how much should I worry? Should I be panicking?? But in reality, what possibly can I do? Yes I feel fearful but what will that achieve? Amma always says that there are 24 hours in a day. We can choose to either go through them as happy 24 hours or worrisome 24 hours. Irrespective, time will pass. The choice is entirely ours. So the trick I'm guessing is in choosing the right attitude and realizing that nothing, absolutely nothing lies in our hands. It's all upto Amma. Only She can help us on our way. And for that, complete trust and faith is a prerequisite. Place ourselves in Her hands wholeheartedly, unquestioningly.
But it's easier said than done. I have faced this dilemma a zillion times. But then that's exactly why faith is no mere word. It needs a spiritual inclination which not everyone can achieve. But when we can find that golden pinnacle, fear will be just another harmless word. And the only word that will matter for us, will be "Amma"
Om Amriteswariye namah!
I could chant this again and again. Oh the millions of times I have felt the stab of fear. Everytime I feel it, my immediate response is to reach out for Amma. And slowly, depending on the situation, calmness descends. There are times when I have gone form fearful to fearless in less than 6 seconds. When I have felt Amma's arms encircle my body and calm me down.
Each time I have chosen to dissect the fear. What is it? Is fear a feeling of not being in control? Or not being in the know of something? Or does it rise in a situation when we worry about something impending? And in each of these, it's the lack of belief in Amma. Mea culpa! For all my posturing, I go through several times a day when I forget Amma or even worse, question Her. I wonder if She really is on the lookout for me. That health issue...how much should I worry? Should I be panicking?? But in reality, what possibly can I do? Yes I feel fearful but what will that achieve? Amma always says that there are 24 hours in a day. We can choose to either go through them as happy 24 hours or worrisome 24 hours. Irrespective, time will pass. The choice is entirely ours. So the trick I'm guessing is in choosing the right attitude and realizing that nothing, absolutely nothing lies in our hands. It's all upto Amma. Only She can help us on our way. And for that, complete trust and faith is a prerequisite. Place ourselves in Her hands wholeheartedly, unquestioningly.
But it's easier said than done. I have faced this dilemma a zillion times. But then that's exactly why faith is no mere word. It needs a spiritual inclination which not everyone can achieve. But when we can find that golden pinnacle, fear will be just another harmless word. And the only word that will matter for us, will be "Amma"
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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