The tidal wave of happiness from Amma!

126. Om sankaryai namah: I bow down to Amma who gives happiness

Thank You Amma for the abundance You have gifted us with. Thank You for the beautiful world that surrounds us. Thank You for the security and warmth You envelop us with. Thank You for Your love that falls like an all embracing cloak on us. Thank You for all this happiness You give us. Not just in terms of things or feelings or emotions but because primarily the first thing we all have to hold a gratitude candle for, is You! 

We could well be living in a time and space in which we are unaware of You. But You ensured that all Your children have known You from different stages of our lives. Some from before birth. Some, soon after. Some, 18 years into their lives. Some, at 40. But each one's first embrace is a life changer. Mornings will never ever be the same again. A sunrise will hold a different beauty. I remember walking up to the Matterhorn and having only one thought: to meditate to Amma. Sitting on that grassy plain, the most beautiful thing I could do looking at that majestic peak, was feel ultimate bliss and happiness as I dwelled on the creator. Amma. From the very first moment I saw Her, I knew. I was only 18 or so, but I just knew I had found my master. The One I hadn't realized I was looking for. Even today I am looking. She is a mystery because She holds the answers to the universe. We probably have been witness only to a infinitesimal part of Her powers. Imagine if She unleashed Her entire power! Would it be like a spiritual tsunami? When I see Amma, the tears that overwhelm me are already like an emotional tsunami from within. 

But this flow of emotion has nothing to do with anything negative. It's totally an outburst of gratitude. Everyday we see negativities floating around us. This threatens to pervade our lives. It threatens to choke every cell in us to an extent that we cannot breathe. Imagine living like this for days on end! And then You arrive, Amma. With the sweetest of words, gestures. That much awaited embrace. And it's like a tidal wave of happiness that chokes me. I buckle in gratitude to the universe. Today I went to the ashram after a long hiatus. Incredible that I went there for chanting the sahasranamavali but as soon as I sat down, the bhajan group sang my favouritest song: chilling keti odi odi vaayo!! I cried in gratitude. How well You knew Amma, that I needed these comforting lines? And then as I prayed by myself, someone decided to play yet another favorite: Shivoham Shivoham! 

Thank You for letting me be a part of Her. Thank You for allowing me a glimpse of Her. Thank You for keeping me under Her umbrella of grace and compassion. Kindness and beauty. Thank You for allowing me the grace to feel gratitude. And these are what total up to the feeling of happiness. May we live with this feeling forever!

Om Amriteswariye namah!