100. Om brahma granthi vibhedinyai namah: I bow down to Amma who breaks through the knot of Brahma
100 beautiful days of blogging the Sri Lalita Sahasranamavali mantras. 100 beautiful days of remembering Amma's many miracles. 100 beautiful days of realizing that on life's path, we are truly alone. It doesn't matter who's with you. Because the only reality is Amma.
Everything is a blur. You walked in and I was crying. Because someone had questioned my faith for you. I had left everything and sat right at the back of the hall. Where I shed copious tears because someone had told me that a good position on stage for volunteering would only be given to those more regular with coming to the ashram and doing seva. My love for You was being questioned. My reason for being unable to attend the ashram regularly - which only You know why - was being questioned. Everything seemed a blur as You walked in. I allowed the tears to flow freely. And as they gathered strength, I felt a sense of relief wash over me. Suddenly I had this feeling that everything was going to be alright. You decided to call me to the stage. You decided I could volunteer for a good number of hours. You decided that I was to be near You when You left the hall. You decided I was worthy of being there. And this time when I cried, it was from a deep and intense sense of love for You. Because You had known of my pain and You had reached out to me.
Amma, for me You are the ultimate creator. You are Brahma. You and only You are my ultimate refuge. When life's many curved paths get difficult to traverse, I plod on wearily but the one knowledge I have is that You will never, ever let me down. For in that hug is a promise of several lifetimes. And may I always be born as Your devotee. For as many lifetimes as You choose. For me and for You.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
100 beautiful days of blogging the Sri Lalita Sahasranamavali mantras. 100 beautiful days of remembering Amma's many miracles. 100 beautiful days of realizing that on life's path, we are truly alone. It doesn't matter who's with you. Because the only reality is Amma.
Everything is a blur. You walked in and I was crying. Because someone had questioned my faith for you. I had left everything and sat right at the back of the hall. Where I shed copious tears because someone had told me that a good position on stage for volunteering would only be given to those more regular with coming to the ashram and doing seva. My love for You was being questioned. My reason for being unable to attend the ashram regularly - which only You know why - was being questioned. Everything seemed a blur as You walked in. I allowed the tears to flow freely. And as they gathered strength, I felt a sense of relief wash over me. Suddenly I had this feeling that everything was going to be alright. You decided to call me to the stage. You decided I could volunteer for a good number of hours. You decided that I was to be near You when You left the hall. You decided I was worthy of being there. And this time when I cried, it was from a deep and intense sense of love for You. Because You had known of my pain and You had reached out to me.
Amma, for me You are the ultimate creator. You are Brahma. You and only You are my ultimate refuge. When life's many curved paths get difficult to traverse, I plod on wearily but the one knowledge I have is that You will never, ever let me down. For in that hug is a promise of several lifetimes. And may I always be born as Your devotee. For as many lifetimes as You choose. For me and for You.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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