Amma is to visit London tomorrow. I envy all the London devotees. I was looking through some of the pictures of Amma's Europe visit and I felt that longing to see Her again; to be a part of a programme. The anticipation, the sheer joy of knowing that in a few hours we will be facing Amma, the world's greatest spiritual leader and happily, our Mother and Guru. Some of the pictures are of Amma saying goodbye to the devotees. That is such a bittersweet moment. You've had absolutely the best days of your life and then suddenly, just like that, She smiles, waves, gets into a car and leaves. You're still enjoying Amma's grace and yet when you see Amma leave, the pain is so severe. You want Her to come back and stay with you forever. But that's just being selfish. And we know it. Sometimes during meditation I find it difficult to even keep my eyes closed. How possibly can I when the Goddess Herself is sitting in front of me? Why would I waste such a precious moment with my eyes closed? Though I capture those moments so that when I'm in deep solitude or in a space of anguish, it's the memory I bring up for solace. Amma's gorgeously peaceful face. And then, all's right with the world.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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