160. Om nis-cintayai namah: I bow down to Amma who has no anxiety in anything
Despite my everyday attempt through prayer at conquering fear, I am hugely unsuccessful. Anxiety is like a ten headed monster that chases me through alleyways that take me away from the spiritual path. The first stab of anxiety and I totally forget about Amma or Her teachings. It takes me a few seconds - and mostly at least a minute - to remember Amma. Sometimes the anxiety is so real that I feel a tightness in my chest. There is an actual physical symptom that manifests almost immediately.
Many years back, my biological mother had advised me that I must constantly chant Amma's mantra. Isn't it true that when Gandhiji was assassinated, his last words were "Hey Ram"? Isn't that just beautiful that when death struck, God was remembered? There was no escape, but obviously these words were being chanted. I realise now that my mother was right and how important it is to constantly chant Amma's mantra. When we chant Amma's mantra constantly, the mind gets trained to be on our ishta devata. It's the equivalent of one pointed meditation. And once we learn this, our mind will find it very difficult to stray into murky territory. Anxiety is one such stop our mind should really not be taking. If we have dedicated our lives at the feet of Amma, then why are we looking around and searching for snakes?? We are by Amma's feet!! The feet of the universal Mother. The highest level of divinity there ever can be. And while here, we are actually audacious enough to look around and get scared of the snake?! This is audacious as this is the equivalent of questioning Amma. Of asking Her: Can You really protect me?
Anxiety is a nasty and rude companion. It enters our very core and rips apart any semblance of peace. Peace can ONLY be found at Amma's feet. So the decision is really upto us, isn't it? The worldly life fraught with anxiety...or the spiritual life where we trust implicitly in Amma. There can only be place for Amma..or anxiety in our lives. Waltzing with anxiety can only lead us down the deepest and darkest of alleys. It's the worst thing we can do to Amma. Following Amma however can only give us a deep sense of calm and happiness. Anxiety should never be a choice we ever exercise. When Amma doesn't succumb to anxiety, why should we? So the choice is ours. A life shredded apart by fear. Or the perfect anxiety free and Amma rich life?
Om Amriteswariye namah!
Despite my everyday attempt through prayer at conquering fear, I am hugely unsuccessful. Anxiety is like a ten headed monster that chases me through alleyways that take me away from the spiritual path. The first stab of anxiety and I totally forget about Amma or Her teachings. It takes me a few seconds - and mostly at least a minute - to remember Amma. Sometimes the anxiety is so real that I feel a tightness in my chest. There is an actual physical symptom that manifests almost immediately.
Many years back, my biological mother had advised me that I must constantly chant Amma's mantra. Isn't it true that when Gandhiji was assassinated, his last words were "Hey Ram"? Isn't that just beautiful that when death struck, God was remembered? There was no escape, but obviously these words were being chanted. I realise now that my mother was right and how important it is to constantly chant Amma's mantra. When we chant Amma's mantra constantly, the mind gets trained to be on our ishta devata. It's the equivalent of one pointed meditation. And once we learn this, our mind will find it very difficult to stray into murky territory. Anxiety is one such stop our mind should really not be taking. If we have dedicated our lives at the feet of Amma, then why are we looking around and searching for snakes?? We are by Amma's feet!! The feet of the universal Mother. The highest level of divinity there ever can be. And while here, we are actually audacious enough to look around and get scared of the snake?! This is audacious as this is the equivalent of questioning Amma. Of asking Her: Can You really protect me?
Anxiety is a nasty and rude companion. It enters our very core and rips apart any semblance of peace. Peace can ONLY be found at Amma's feet. So the decision is really upto us, isn't it? The worldly life fraught with anxiety...or the spiritual life where we trust implicitly in Amma. There can only be place for Amma..or anxiety in our lives. Waltzing with anxiety can only lead us down the deepest and darkest of alleys. It's the worst thing we can do to Amma. Following Amma however can only give us a deep sense of calm and happiness. Anxiety should never be a choice we ever exercise. When Amma doesn't succumb to anxiety, why should we? So the choice is ours. A life shredded apart by fear. Or the perfect anxiety free and Amma rich life?
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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