666. Om bhuma-rupayai namah: I bow down to Amma who is the aggregate of all existing things
Found a dried rose petal from Devi bhava tucked away in my prayer book and had an emotional moment where I missed Amma so much, it hurt. I remembered how Amma showered us with rose petals and we all caught whatever we could, hiding it away, tucking it for a good memory another day. I held on to that rose petal as if for dear life, investing it with every memory of Amma. I was hoping it would perform a miracle and lo and behold! there Amma would be, but like I wrote yesterday, She's always there by our side. We just don;t have the spiritual maturity to realise it. I look for memories from Amma's last visit, every where. Whether it be the volunteer tag I hold on to or the earring I may have bought, they're all precious reminders of those fantastical 3 days with Amma when everything seems perfect and bliss is just a hug or a glance away. What is it that makes it all so right those days? For me it's the comfort of knowing that Amma is right there and so NOTHING can go wrong. But if we realise that Amma is divinity Herself, then Amma is definitely omnipresent. So why can't the rest of the 362 days be equally perfect? I definitely need to work at feeling that perfection every day. After all, why would my Mother let me down just because I'm not next to Her. She's my MOTHER. And no way will She ever give up on me!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
Found a dried rose petal from Devi bhava tucked away in my prayer book and had an emotional moment where I missed Amma so much, it hurt. I remembered how Amma showered us with rose petals and we all caught whatever we could, hiding it away, tucking it for a good memory another day. I held on to that rose petal as if for dear life, investing it with every memory of Amma. I was hoping it would perform a miracle and lo and behold! there Amma would be, but like I wrote yesterday, She's always there by our side. We just don;t have the spiritual maturity to realise it. I look for memories from Amma's last visit, every where. Whether it be the volunteer tag I hold on to or the earring I may have bought, they're all precious reminders of those fantastical 3 days with Amma when everything seems perfect and bliss is just a hug or a glance away. What is it that makes it all so right those days? For me it's the comfort of knowing that Amma is right there and so NOTHING can go wrong. But if we realise that Amma is divinity Herself, then Amma is definitely omnipresent. So why can't the rest of the 362 days be equally perfect? I definitely need to work at feeling that perfection every day. After all, why would my Mother let me down just because I'm not next to Her. She's my MOTHER. And no way will She ever give up on me!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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