177. Om nir-abadhayai namah: I bow down to Amma who is not disturbed by anything.
She truly isn't disturbed by anything. I have seen photos of Amma very upset when She embraced the victims of the 2004 tsunami. But She was purely mirroring what the universe was feeling. Amma's inner peace cannot be disturbed by anything. If I were to scratch the level deeper, I would say that the reason for this is because She sees Herself differently from no one. And when there is no difference between the 'you' and 'I', why would She be disturbed by anything? The giver and the taker are the same.
We are affected by the slights vibrations around us. We are quick to take offense at one wrong word. We dive into the pool of fear and anger very swiftly. Sometimes, too soon for everyone's comfort. But Amma keeps the calm within Her because She is at peace with the universe. She meets thousands of people a day who unburden every problem to Her. Even an iota of fatigue does not show on Amma's face, purely because She isn't disturbed by it. What we may consider fatigue, is purely Love towards Her children, for Her. Amma's equanimity at all times is a lesson in itself. We may pray all day and light every lamp in the world. But when faced with a difficult situation, it is so easy for us to get extremely disturbed by our circumstances. We are so quick to forget Amma's ever flowing grace in our lives. We fret, fume, doubt. About Amma. About the world. And still Amma continues, servant like, to work for us. Even as I write this, I feel a gnawing sense of shame. How often have I been guilty of this! When faced with a black hole, I buckle, I cry, I lament, I question, I doubt. And I sit in a corner, hugely disturbed and ask the world, "Why Me?" The world must be laughing behind my back wondering exactly when I will open my eyes and acknowledge the presence of the all powerful Amma in my life?! The only one in the universe who can correct all wrongs and with one sankalpa, make it all right!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
She truly isn't disturbed by anything. I have seen photos of Amma very upset when She embraced the victims of the 2004 tsunami. But She was purely mirroring what the universe was feeling. Amma's inner peace cannot be disturbed by anything. If I were to scratch the level deeper, I would say that the reason for this is because She sees Herself differently from no one. And when there is no difference between the 'you' and 'I', why would She be disturbed by anything? The giver and the taker are the same.
We are affected by the slights vibrations around us. We are quick to take offense at one wrong word. We dive into the pool of fear and anger very swiftly. Sometimes, too soon for everyone's comfort. But Amma keeps the calm within Her because She is at peace with the universe. She meets thousands of people a day who unburden every problem to Her. Even an iota of fatigue does not show on Amma's face, purely because She isn't disturbed by it. What we may consider fatigue, is purely Love towards Her children, for Her. Amma's equanimity at all times is a lesson in itself. We may pray all day and light every lamp in the world. But when faced with a difficult situation, it is so easy for us to get extremely disturbed by our circumstances. We are so quick to forget Amma's ever flowing grace in our lives. We fret, fume, doubt. About Amma. About the world. And still Amma continues, servant like, to work for us. Even as I write this, I feel a gnawing sense of shame. How often have I been guilty of this! When faced with a black hole, I buckle, I cry, I lament, I question, I doubt. And I sit in a corner, hugely disturbed and ask the world, "Why Me?" The world must be laughing behind my back wondering exactly when I will open my eyes and acknowledge the presence of the all powerful Amma in my life?! The only one in the universe who can correct all wrongs and with one sankalpa, make it all right!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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