182. Om nis-kriyayai namah: I bow down to Amma who remains without action
Today I had an incredible moment with Amma. I was doing my chanting at the ashram. A friend was distributing the prashad. I looked up once briefly and really wanted the banana so I could take it home for my family. But I also knew that by the time I finished with the chanting, the fruit would have been distributed. The lady giving it out seemed like she didn't wish to disturb my prayer. I took a moment. I prayed to Amma for one banana. And then as I had put out my prayer to Her, I left it in the TRUST zone. And I went back to praying to Amma. Not long after I looked up briefly to see my friend approach me with the banana. I was praying and yet she was bringing it to me. It was almost magical. I had trusted and wanted. And Amma gave it to me. She made sure I received.
I wept softly. For every time Amma blesses me in some way or the other, I feel a sense of being overwhelmed. Amma, the Goddess of the universe is looking out for me!!! It makes me happy, it makes me safe. It also makes me feel responsible. We can't just throw away our lives. Amma is ALWAYS looking out for us. She will only do what is good for us and for our emotional and spiritual growth. We are protected. We are safe. Most importantly, we are loved. By Amma. And in that knowledge, let us all only do good for everyone.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
Today I had an incredible moment with Amma. I was doing my chanting at the ashram. A friend was distributing the prashad. I looked up once briefly and really wanted the banana so I could take it home for my family. But I also knew that by the time I finished with the chanting, the fruit would have been distributed. The lady giving it out seemed like she didn't wish to disturb my prayer. I took a moment. I prayed to Amma for one banana. And then as I had put out my prayer to Her, I left it in the TRUST zone. And I went back to praying to Amma. Not long after I looked up briefly to see my friend approach me with the banana. I was praying and yet she was bringing it to me. It was almost magical. I had trusted and wanted. And Amma gave it to me. She made sure I received.
I wept softly. For every time Amma blesses me in some way or the other, I feel a sense of being overwhelmed. Amma, the Goddess of the universe is looking out for me!!! It makes me happy, it makes me safe. It also makes me feel responsible. We can't just throw away our lives. Amma is ALWAYS looking out for us. She will only do what is good for us and for our emotional and spiritual growth. We are protected. We are safe. Most importantly, we are loved. By Amma. And in that knowledge, let us all only do good for everyone.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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