I think my entire relationship may well be changing with You, Amma. I am now wondering why You are putting me through so much and making me undergo so much introspection and doubt. I am wondering what plans You have in store for me. You have never let me down but You are putting me through one of the most difficult tests. I want no one else in this equation except You and me, Amma. I know I should just accept everything as Your will. In this acceptance will ultimately lie my release from pain but I am finding it difficult to reach this level of acceptance. I hope I can achieve it soon enough. I hope I will be able to finally understand Your plan for me. I hope when I meet You, I can sit down by Your feet and ask You why You think it necessary to make me stand on grits and go through life. I know I may have come with a loan rather than a deposit as You always say, Amma. But please let this loan be repaid so I can enjoy the walk of life. All under Your grace of course.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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