4. Om cid agni kunda sambhutayai namah: I bow down to Amma who was born in the fire pit of Pure Consciousness.
One of the most beautiful things about Amma (and the list is long!) is her voice. She sings in a voice I cannot describe...because what quality do you ascribe to a voice that resonates with perfection, that brings to life devotion, that suffuses your heart with a bliss so deep, it has to be expressed through tears? Perhaps the closest word that gives the most accurate description, is "divine". A divinity that can only come from a state of pure consciousness...where She merges with the realm of divinity and becomes One with it.
So have I been lucky to see Amma in a state of Pure Consciousness? During a bhajan perhaps, when Amma's eyes close and Her face reflects a state of bliss; during darshan maybe, when Amma looks away if only for a fraction of a second; during the Aarti when Amma looks down, eyes shut and hands folded in a pranam? Where is She then? What is She seeing through those closed eyes? Is that when Amma silently walks away to listen to Her multitudes of devotees the world over? Is that when Amma listens to me calling out to Her? Is that when Amma ceases every thing and hears a cry from across the world? Is that Her state of Pure Consciousness?
How miniscule my vision is! For Amma is beyond everything that can be defined; Amma is beyond everything that can be encapsulated. She isn't just merging with Pure Consciousness, she was born in the fire pit of Pure Consciousness. That silent state of inner wakefulness. That state where the why, when and how don't matter. Where even the who melts away into nothingness. Where the wise walk in after years of working at removing the ego. Yet my Amma was born into it! She is it! An egoless divine presence who has embraced the world in a tight grip of love.
And one day when my mind learns silence and my eyes are shut, I might finally have the vision...and the grace, to get a glimpse of Amma's state of Pure Consciousness!
Om Amriteshwariye namah!
One of the most beautiful things about Amma (and the list is long!) is her voice. She sings in a voice I cannot describe...because what quality do you ascribe to a voice that resonates with perfection, that brings to life devotion, that suffuses your heart with a bliss so deep, it has to be expressed through tears? Perhaps the closest word that gives the most accurate description, is "divine". A divinity that can only come from a state of pure consciousness...where She merges with the realm of divinity and becomes One with it.
So have I been lucky to see Amma in a state of Pure Consciousness? During a bhajan perhaps, when Amma's eyes close and Her face reflects a state of bliss; during darshan maybe, when Amma looks away if only for a fraction of a second; during the Aarti when Amma looks down, eyes shut and hands folded in a pranam? Where is She then? What is She seeing through those closed eyes? Is that when Amma silently walks away to listen to Her multitudes of devotees the world over? Is that when Amma listens to me calling out to Her? Is that when Amma ceases every thing and hears a cry from across the world? Is that Her state of Pure Consciousness?
How miniscule my vision is! For Amma is beyond everything that can be defined; Amma is beyond everything that can be encapsulated. She isn't just merging with Pure Consciousness, she was born in the fire pit of Pure Consciousness. That silent state of inner wakefulness. That state where the why, when and how don't matter. Where even the who melts away into nothingness. Where the wise walk in after years of working at removing the ego. Yet my Amma was born into it! She is it! An egoless divine presence who has embraced the world in a tight grip of love.
And one day when my mind learns silence and my eyes are shut, I might finally have the vision...and the grace, to get a glimpse of Amma's state of Pure Consciousness!
Om Amriteshwariye namah!
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