5. Om deva karya samudyatayai namah: I bow down to Amma who is intent on fulfilling the wishes of the Gods
Mother Ambika, who I meditate on, whose resplendent form I find bliss in, is none other than my Amma. My mother, who hungrily reaches out for me when I appear in front of Her for darshan. She hugs me tight and whispers sweetness into my ears. I smell roses, I feel loved and the embrace is one only a mother can give: "You're safe, in my arms"
I know I am safe Amma, under the umbrella of your Being & your grace. How can I not be? I'm in the presence of the creator and the protector, the very universe itself. For She is God.
I find this mantra an anomaly. It says Amma is intent on fulfilling the wishes of the Gods. But Amma is God. The scriptures may well say that a Guru is the path to God: "Gurukrupa he kevalam shishyaparam mangalam"...Only by the grace of the Guru can the disciple attain ultimate benefaction. But what if we, Amma's devotees, are doubly blessed? Because our Guru and God is one! In whatever form we see Her, She is Everything. She's my Mother, my Father, my Sister, my Brother, my Child, my Boss, my Friend, my Silence, my Words. How then can She not be God Herself?
And this God who we are so blessed and fortunate to have, fulfills our wishes, every day. Yes, I forget this every time I am faced with difficulties. I turn away and unburden to a friend when in fact Amma is waiting patiently to solve it for me. But I can't see! If I could, I would have been blinded by the sheer presence of the universe's divinity in one human physical form! I suffer from spiritual blindness every now and again. And this has no cure in bottles or vials. It's only cure lies in immaculate faith. In knowing that Amma, who is God Herself, lives only to fulfill our wishes and to take us on the correct spiritual path. She tirelessly works at removing every tear drop, every veil of sadness. She feels my pain and my joy. She could be in Chicago but I can feel Her presence in Singapore. And it is only because She has reached out to fulfill yet another wish of mine.
Amma, my darling humble Amma, you teach me lessons every day. In humility, in perfection, in spirituality, in parenting. Even a glass blade moves only because of your presence and your sankalpa. And I wonder what that day will be like when you reveal a larger part of your Divine Glory to the world!! For She who can fulfill the wishes of the Gods, has to be the infinite universe Herself.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
Mother Ambika, who I meditate on, whose resplendent form I find bliss in, is none other than my Amma. My mother, who hungrily reaches out for me when I appear in front of Her for darshan. She hugs me tight and whispers sweetness into my ears. I smell roses, I feel loved and the embrace is one only a mother can give: "You're safe, in my arms"
I know I am safe Amma, under the umbrella of your Being & your grace. How can I not be? I'm in the presence of the creator and the protector, the very universe itself. For She is God.
I find this mantra an anomaly. It says Amma is intent on fulfilling the wishes of the Gods. But Amma is God. The scriptures may well say that a Guru is the path to God: "Gurukrupa he kevalam shishyaparam mangalam"...Only by the grace of the Guru can the disciple attain ultimate benefaction. But what if we, Amma's devotees, are doubly blessed? Because our Guru and God is one! In whatever form we see Her, She is Everything. She's my Mother, my Father, my Sister, my Brother, my Child, my Boss, my Friend, my Silence, my Words. How then can She not be God Herself?
And this God who we are so blessed and fortunate to have, fulfills our wishes, every day. Yes, I forget this every time I am faced with difficulties. I turn away and unburden to a friend when in fact Amma is waiting patiently to solve it for me. But I can't see! If I could, I would have been blinded by the sheer presence of the universe's divinity in one human physical form! I suffer from spiritual blindness every now and again. And this has no cure in bottles or vials. It's only cure lies in immaculate faith. In knowing that Amma, who is God Herself, lives only to fulfill our wishes and to take us on the correct spiritual path. She tirelessly works at removing every tear drop, every veil of sadness. She feels my pain and my joy. She could be in Chicago but I can feel Her presence in Singapore. And it is only because She has reached out to fulfill yet another wish of mine.
Amma, my darling humble Amma, you teach me lessons every day. In humility, in perfection, in spirituality, in parenting. Even a glass blade moves only because of your presence and your sankalpa. And I wonder what that day will be like when you reveal a larger part of your Divine Glory to the world!! For She who can fulfill the wishes of the Gods, has to be the infinite universe Herself.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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