625. Om kaivalya-pada-dayinyai namah: I bow down to Amma who bestows liberation
I normally like to be very timely with the writing of each post but yesterday has to be an exception. I was with Amma all day and all night. During Devi Bhava, I soaked in Amma's beauty and was just happy to be in Her divine presence. Through the night, as the crowds surged and Amma's strong divinity just washed over everyone like a calming wave, we all went about our work with a heavy heart. After 3 days of bliss, it was a countdown of a few more painful hours before it was all over and Amma left! The last of the crowds. 2 weddings. Varied ceremonies. Everyone was eager but tired. The energy came in waves. But not for the Mother who had sat 10 continuous hours consoling, joking, caring, mothering each and every one of Her children. She stood up happy, full of compassion and energized with Her love for us. The singers sang a song I will now always associate with the pain of separation from Amma. "Amma, Amma taye..." That's when the tears flowed freely, creating banks of sorrow and wretched pain. In a room of about five to six hundred people, everyone stood alone, battling this pain. And then, Amma came out back on stage in Her gorgeous white saree. She lifted Her hands with a "Mata Rani Ki Jai!" The smile was back in our lives. The clouds had parted. We smiled, we imitated Her. And then She looked at all of us with immense love. Before the tears could start again, She was gone. We held on. A few hours hence, the pain's resurfaced. Reality's hit home. It's going to be another 12 painful months. And yet, the positive shade would be to say that it's 12 months of living under Amma's umbrella of grace before we see Her again. 12 months of chanting Her name, of living by Her principles, of living a good life. Of letting Her grace, compassion and love guide us everyday. Of letting Her lead us through life. And once that thought settles in, life becomes just a few degrees more bearable!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
I normally like to be very timely with the writing of each post but yesterday has to be an exception. I was with Amma all day and all night. During Devi Bhava, I soaked in Amma's beauty and was just happy to be in Her divine presence. Through the night, as the crowds surged and Amma's strong divinity just washed over everyone like a calming wave, we all went about our work with a heavy heart. After 3 days of bliss, it was a countdown of a few more painful hours before it was all over and Amma left! The last of the crowds. 2 weddings. Varied ceremonies. Everyone was eager but tired. The energy came in waves. But not for the Mother who had sat 10 continuous hours consoling, joking, caring, mothering each and every one of Her children. She stood up happy, full of compassion and energized with Her love for us. The singers sang a song I will now always associate with the pain of separation from Amma. "Amma, Amma taye..." That's when the tears flowed freely, creating banks of sorrow and wretched pain. In a room of about five to six hundred people, everyone stood alone, battling this pain. And then, Amma came out back on stage in Her gorgeous white saree. She lifted Her hands with a "Mata Rani Ki Jai!" The smile was back in our lives. The clouds had parted. We smiled, we imitated Her. And then She looked at all of us with immense love. Before the tears could start again, She was gone. We held on. A few hours hence, the pain's resurfaced. Reality's hit home. It's going to be another 12 painful months. And yet, the positive shade would be to say that it's 12 months of living under Amma's umbrella of grace before we see Her again. 12 months of chanting Her name, of living by Her principles, of living a good life. Of letting Her grace, compassion and love guide us everyday. Of letting Her lead us through life. And once that thought settles in, life becomes just a few degrees more bearable!
Om Amriteswariye namah!
No comments:
Post a Comment