What is the core of our relationship with Amma? Somedays I do look at Amma as a friend I can tell anything to. Some days She's a Mother whom I run to for all the many ways I am hurting. Some days She's a Goddess who I am scared of. And some days She's a mute witness to every shred of pain in my body. Many a times I have wondered what the proper protocol with Amma is. When we meet Her or see Her, which avatar am I placing Her in? Is She my friend, Mother, Goddess, witness? What? When I am approaching Amma in the queue, if intellect rules, I find myself looking at Her as a revered Guru who thousands seek salvation from. But that persona is so removed from a personal sphere of affection. Can I love a Guru who isn't just mine but is the leader of thousands? Is the word "love" appropriate? I think I find it easier to love Amma. I find it easier to see Amma as a Mother. Someone I can hug, cry and laugh with and complain to. Someone I can incessantly babble to about the shortcomings of the world. And I know She won't berate me because a Mother wouldn't do that. Not my Mother at least. My Mother would patiently listen and cajole me into understanding; cajole me into giving up my anger; coax me into keeping aside my pain and praying for others.
Yes, Mother it surely is. The core of our relationship with our beautiful Amma.
Om Amriteswariye namah!
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